Before I die...

Before I die, I want to be able to look back on my life, proudly, and say: "It was all worth it." I want to find true love and happiness, know who my REAL friends are, go to a dance, go on an amazing date, have a big “movie screen” kiss, have at least one good birthday, get a tattoo, travel through Europe, get a Doctorates degree in Psychology, become successful, get married to someone who loves me with all their heart and nothing less, maybe have children, visit all five national parks, stand in awe of the Grand Canyon, stand before some of the most beautiful places in the world, help build a house, go to a “big concert” learn to play the guitar, harmonica, and/or piano and preform before a small audience, take ballroom dancing lessons and become amazing at it, write a book based on my life, publish every poem I've ever written, be given a dozen sunflowers; my favorite flower, take up photography and capture the beauty of the world as I see it through my eyes, visit an art gallery, stand in awe of mother nature in the arms of the love of my life-whether it be an ocean, foliage, clouds, etc., forgive myself for my mistakes/let certain things go, make a difference in at least ONE persons life, live in a world that has found peace, make a big difference in this world; someway, somehow, and find a deeper understanding of why God put me in this world. Even though I may not accomplish all my goals, I can still hope because I know that I'm going to make a huge difference in this world someday; I'm determined to.

Who Me?

I'm a woman of few words, but if you have patience, then you can truly get to know me. I'm a pessimist, with a bit of optimism. I'm a woman who has been hurt, bruised, and disappointed in more ways than one, but yet I still search for the outstanding beauty that this world has to offer.

I've seen the face of depression but have yet to feel the joy of happiness. Even with my learned helplessness, I still believe I'll truly find the happiness, love and friendship I need one day.

I've never loved, but I know that I can; I just need to find someone who can love me.

I love to think about the beauty and heartache about life; it's something I do often. I have my fears for what life may bring, but still I embrace it whole-heartedly with my arms wide open.

I aspire to be an successful adolescent Psychologist someday. Many people never understand exactly why I have chose this particular career path, but if you did, you'd know I mean well.

I am far from perfect and I know this without a doubt. I try, and though I may make mistakes, God knows I mean well.